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Woman had abortion, feels she never had a choice

by | Aug 31, 2017

By Sarah Terzo

This woman’s story shows how some women who have abortions do not make their own choices but are coerced by others.

“When I was 16, I became pregnant by my boyfriend. I decided to keep my baby from the start. For weeks, I followed her development with medical books and pictures.… My hand was never far from my stomach…

When I finally told my parents of my pregnancy, they were devastated. They pleaded with me to have an abortion, but I felt I’d rather die than hurt my baby. When I didn’t change my mind, they asked me to leave..…

Well-meaning people told me that God understood my need for an abortion. It was the responsible thing to do. Having a baby at my age would be unfair to so many people, they said.

My parents said my baby wasn’t a person yet, and the obstetrician agreed. How could abortion be wrong when so many people accepted it? I let my feelings cloud my judgment, and I closed my heart completely.…

I remember wishing that abortion wasn’t legal. People say it gives women a choice, but I felt I didn’t have one. Since abortion was available, it was my duty to choose it.…

[After the abortion] There was a pit inside me that I dared not go near.

Then one day at the movies, I saw it on the big screen: “Hurting after an Abortion?”… I memorized the phone number and called that night… I argued that I didn’t regret my decision, and I did not have feelings to deal with. But I couldn’t say the word baby or look at pregnant women or hold a teddy bear or buy a goldfish or touch my stomach or be reminded that I had a heartbeat.”

She described the way she felt after the abortion as “indescribable emptiness.” She eventually found healing through counseling.

From Wendy Williams, Ann Caldwell, Empty Arms: More Than 60 Life-Giving Stories of Hope from the Devastation of Abortion (Chattanooga, Tennessee: Living Ink Books, 2005), pp. 79-80

Editor’s note. This appeared at Clinic Quotes and is reposted with permission.

Categories: Abortion
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