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Post-abortive woman talks about her grief

by | Aug 13, 2021

By Sarah Terzo

Pro-life author and post-abortive woman Renée Smith wrote:

“While I soon healed physically from the procedure itself, it has taken many years for me to heal emotionally and spiritually. Not long after having the abortion I became depressed and withdrawn. It became difficult to engage with my [living] daughter or find joy or fun in anything. I also quickly jumped into another relationship within a few months with a man old enough to be my father…

I was looking for a way to drown out the memory of the abortion. Life had little meaning for me; I was trying to dull the pain of what I had done…

Two years later I got pregnant again. This time I gave birth to a baby boy.

Financially, I was in no better place than when I became pregnant the prior time. But, having had an abortion before and still dealing with the emotional turmoil that the abortion brought about, I was determined not to abort my baby this time.

I never spoke about the abortion to anyone, not even my two children. Now, over 20 years later, when I hear certain sounds, like that of a vacuum sealer for food, I am immediately transported back to that moment when I ended my baby’s life. Some things don’t ever go away. Sometimes, I’ll think about him/her and what age they’d be, what type of child or young adult they would have been. Whenever I see another child who is the same age as my unborn baby, I think that could be my child. Every year around the time of the abortion, I could feel a sense of sadness overtake me.”

Renée Smith, Hope beyond Abortion: A Story of God’s Redeeming Grace (undated).

Editor’s note. This appeared at Clinic Quotes and is reposted with permission.

Categories: Abortion